
From Suffering to Awakening: My Spiritual Journey with Anxiety
At the age of 17, I began working at a mental hospital. For many years, I balanced this work with my university studies.
During my time there, I met souls who had been institutionalized their entire lives, enduring horrific treatments. One part of the hospital was even turned into a museum, displaying the historical methods used in psychiatry, such as long baths, insulin shocks, lobotomies, and straitjackets.
When I was 22 years old, I started to experience an uncomfortable feeling in my stomach. At first, it was subtle, but over time, it grew stronger. Eventually, I realized that this sensation was anxiety.
I felt deeply ashamed of it.
It wasn’t something I could talk about or show to others. I came to understand that this anxiety was something inside of me, something I carried that resembled the suffering I had witnessed in the souls I encountered at the mental hospital.
This heavy, uncomfortable feeling lingered in my stomach every day for years, sometimes more intense than others. I learned various ways to cope, constantly pushing the anxiety away whenever it appeared. I went to therapy for years in an attempt to rid myself of it, but the anxiety remained. In my 30s, I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) and was prescribed antidepressants to help suppress it further.
Embracing Motherhood and Healing: Understanding Anxiety as a Soul’s Journey
When I became a mother, I remember feeling sadness because I couldn’t fully immerse myself in the euphoria of welcoming my baby. The anxiety was still there, but I made the decision to embrace and enjoy the moment with my newborn, regardless of the lingering discomfort.
Today, in my 50s, I have come to understand that the anxiety I experienced was much more than a mental or physical condition. It was a massive ball of deeply repressed emotions, coexisting in many parallel and past lives of trauma. As a soul, I had experienced these events in various karmic timelines. I also understand now that before I incarnated in this lifetime, I contracted to undergo a profound transformation, not only for myself but for the collective—an integral part of my spiritual awakening process.
Conclusion
Sometimes when you take on a hardship..it's exactly what you are meant to be a Wayshower for - through your own experienceÂ
 I Thank YOU - all of you on this journey
Love Maria
Heal Anxiety: A Transformative Healing Audio Based on My Personal Journey
Daily anxiety—was a constant companion that shaped my days in the invisible. Over the years, I’ve come to understand anxiety on a deeper level, not just as something to endure but as something to transform.Â
I created this healing audio based on my own journey with anxiety and the transformative methods that have helped me along the way. Having lived with anxiety for many years, I deeply understand the struggles and challenges it brings.
Through my personal healing process, I’ve learned the power of releasing core fears, emotional trauma, and limiting patterns. This audio combines the tools and energies that have supported my own healing, allowing you to connect with higher frequencies and gently dissolve anxiety, layer by layer, just as I did on my path to inner peace and balance.
Love Maria
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